Eating Disorders Today

Eating Disorders and Body Communication

       Much material I read and hear about eating disorders concerns how a person feels and thinks about her body.  But not much has come to my attention that relates to how the body thinks and feels.

      How the body thinks and feels may be a concept that requires a stretch for some or even many people until we open ourselves to understanding the language of the body.

       The body has no words.  Still, our bodies tell us when they need sleep or food or a change in external temperature.  Our bodies tell us when they need a more firm or cushioned bed or chair.  They certainly tell us when something is hurtful to them, like too much heat or cold or abrasion or puncture.

       Most of us have had a near miss when our eyelids blinked faster than thought to avoid a spec from flying into our eyes.

       Our bodies communicate potentially life saving information like when the hair on the back of the neck rises.  This is a primitive body warning of danger on a survival level.

       An aspect of eating disorder recovery involves giving respect to the body itself and learning not only its language but also how to heed what the body says.

       What if the anorexic woman listened to her endocrine system that cried out for nourishment as hormonal function shut down?

       What if the bulimic woman listened to her esophagus plead for a rest from the continuous flow of digestive acids?

       What if the compulsive eater or binge eater listened to a stomach that cried out for mercy and relief from the continuous need to stretch to the point of pain?

       What if, instead of war, we learned to make peace with our bodies?

Joanna Poppink, MFT, psychotherapist eating disorder specialist, Los Angeles, CA bulimia, anorexia, compulsive overeating recovery, www.poppink.com

Imagery and Intuition regarding Eating Disorders

       The Marion Woodman three day Dreams workshop was warm, challenging and wonderful. I’ve been wondering what to share with you.  Dream work is so personal, but then, so is eating disorder recovery.

       The most powerful image I had, toward the end of the second day, my intuition tells me is relevant to all eating disorders.

       Marion is in her eighties.  Her body is disintegrating.  She uses and needs a cane.  She conserves her energy as best she can.  She survived and recovered from a serious bout with cancer.

       But, when she speaks, her spirit is fiery. Her eyes glow.  Her voice is strong.  She beams warmth and assertive direction that makes us forget her physical frailty as we become inspired by her wisdom and passion.

       The image came through to me of a candle, but not a candle with a wick that burns on top. This white luminous candle contains a wick in the center that burns all the way from top to bottom within the wax.

       The fire within sends out heat that melts the wax from within.  So, for Marion, the image was of her inner fire melting her body away.

       I stayed with this image since Marion inspired it but was not it.  The image went much farther.

       The length of interior burning wick, if too hot, melts the wax encasing.  The candle is gone leaving only a line of fire.  Well, that could mean that the spirit burns brightly but is without a body.  This is an anorexic dream.

       Another version is this:  The length of interior burning wick is hot and melts the wax encasing. But, more wax is added on a continual basis.  This makes the wax thick and forever thickening so the heat of the fire doesn’t penetrate through the wax and into living space.  The candle keepsg getting bigger and the light is continually less visible.  This is the experience of the binge eater or compulsive overeater.

      What about bulimia?  In terms of my image, bulimia is tormented in a different way. In this image the wholeness of the fire and the wax is aware.  The fire burns and the wax melts beginning to reveal the blazing wick.  But the feelings that go with that fire are too intense to bear. Then the wax builds up thickly to bury the flame.  The dullness of that burial is too lonely and terrifying, so the wax is allowed to melt away until the terror of exposure forces the build up again. This is the in and out, here and gone grueling and endless repetition that is unaddressed bulimia.

       These are powerful and helpful images for me. They hold intellectual, emotional and physical understandings in a way that only intuitive imagery can pull together and allow to develop simultaneously.

       Where do you go with these images? 

Joanna Poppink, MFT, psychotherapist eating disorder specialist, Los Angeles, CA bulimia, anorexia, compulsive overeating recovery, www.poppink.com